Me.

I am so tired right now its not even funny. And my day hasn't even started yet. Duaghter is still asleep, its 9:06 and I'm exhausted for no apparent reason other than the damn word Fibromyalgia.
I was diagnosed with F.M. last year and fear that if someone doesn't do something now ... I'll be in a wheelchair within the next 10 years.
At least I am in physical therapy for my knee and she (as opposed to her co-worker the week b4) could tell the hip pain is what is causing me to walk funky and cause the knee pain. The only thing she didn't say that was helpful that they guy did, was that I could do pool therapy through them. She was telling me to go to gyms that cost.
When I walk out of P.T. I feel rejuvenated ... then I come home to the craziness and everything is back to 'normal'.

Fibromyalgia isn't something I would wish on my enemy. It is to put it lightly, a pain disorder. Think of stubbing your toe ... it feels 10 times worse when F.M. is in a flair up. There's weight gain which causes more issues. Emotional issuses. Pain 24/7 ... some constant or when one pain ends a different begins. For example ... my back is a constant pain. The majority of the time that was what was hurting the most. Then we moved into the house with two flights of steps and my knee that had occasional pain, now hurts like a biotch. I have Chronmalcia (can't spell) ... otherwise known as Runners knee. The cartialage in my knee is depleating and may one day need knee replacement. Now keep in mind I am only 29.

And I know I need to lose weight. I'm working on that. In High School I learned diets don't work for me AT ALL!!! I need to turn it into muscle. That's how I lost the weight then, 50 pounds in one semester. I want to lose @ least 50 lbs by September. But since the only gym setting I can do is pyhsical therapy. Once I rebuild the muscle that is missing in my knee area, then eventually I can. I have almost 1/2 an inch difference in muscle between my knees. And that could have been like that my entire life... who knows.

I have already cut my meals down. And barely drink caffeine anymore. Had my first Coke in two or more weeks, man was I gassy! And anyone that knows me, know I love my Coke. Would drink them day and night. That was my water juice and millk.

Now I'm getting a headache again, my man is going back to sleep and making me sleepy since. They are both snoring.

Better relax while I have the moments chance.

D.D.